By Norman Bales
The human mind is a strange thing. Recently, a thought popped into my
mind while I was in the car. I have no idea what stimulated the thought,
but I vividly recalled a childhood incident, one in which I was ashamed
of my actions. The incident occurred more than fifty years ago, but I
replayed the scene in my memory as vividly as if it took place
yesterday. Some time later I ran across the phrase "emotional residue"
in my reading. I thought that was a pretty good label to place on my not
so pleasant trip down memory lane.
Are your thoughts ever interrupted by emotional residue from the past?
Most of us don't talk about it much, but it seems to be a common
problem. Emotional residue is like a stain on your carpet. It's hard to
get out. In my case, I learned that it still lurks somewhere in the
recesses of my brain after a half century. It's not in the forefront of
my consciousness everyday, but I'm amazed at how vivid a negative mental
picture can be after the passage of a long period of time. Emotional
residue is a potential happiness robber, a prospective relationship
destroyer, and a latent family killer. While emotional residue may lie
dormant for many years, if you stir it up, it can create havoc. When you
start digging up the past, you bring a lot of baggage along with the
event - feelings of guilt, inadequacy, failure, blame, projection and
who knows what else.
So what can you do about it?
Deal with it. Stop trying to cover it up and pretend its not there. It's
not going to leave if you ignore it. It's like the distant unemployed
relative who shows up on your doorstep and eats your groceries while
never contributing a dime to the food budget and then refuses to leave.
You need to recognize the fact that those unwanted memories are messing
up your mind and could damage. If it involves sin, you need to admit it
and repent of it if you haven't already done so. The statute of
limitations doesn't run out on sin. Time doesn't erase our sins, but God
does. The Bible says, "If we claim to be without sin, we deceive
ourselves and the truth is not in us. (1 John 1:8).
Accept God's Forgiveness. Unfortunately, emotional residue crops up in
the lives of people who have indeed repented and whose sins are covered
by the blood of Christ. The problem lies in our unwillingness or
inability to feel God's forgiveness. If he has forgiven you, why do you
keep beating yourself over the head with it? Again John proclaims, "He
is faithful and just and will forgive our sins" (1 John 1:9). And here's
a word of encouragement to those who have never been able to totally
feel forgiven. It is not necessary to feel forgiven in order to be
forgiven. In 1 John 3:19-20, the apostle wrote, "This is how we know we
belong to the truth, and how our hearts are set at rest in his presence,
whenever our hearts condemn us. For God is greater than our hearts and
he knows everything." That was a tremendous encouragement to me when I
was suddenly attacked by emotional residue.
Get on with your life. Work on building healthy relationships. Work on
developing wholesome character traits. Work on deepening your
relationship with God. You are still a valued and worthwhile member of
your family. Your family needs you. It's not a time to evade family
responsibility. That emotional residue is probably a message from Satan
designed to interfere with your family relationships. The event that
produced the emotional residue must not be allowed to hinder your
growth. It must not be allowed to drive a wedge between you and your
spouse or between you and your children. You have worth in God's sight.
Let him make something better out of you. None of us are sinless, but we
are making progress toward a better time. Again John helps us out,
"Dear friends, now we are children of God, and what we will be has not
yet been made known. But we know that when he appears, we shall be like
him for we shall see him as he is" (1 John 3:2).
- Norman Bales; via The Family Friend, a monthly newsletter published by
the Calvert City church of Christ, Calvert City, KY. It is an
excellent resource for articles relating to the family. To learn more
consult the congregation's website: http://www.calvertchurchofchrist.com